i've been struggling with depression for 5 years now. I was steadily working on it, finding Gavin's show definitely helped, but Ive been struggling at work for the past 3 years. I seemed to be coping just alright, I even started doing sports recently and so on, but today everything crumbled and havent been able to even step out of bed. I had a sort of mental breakdown I guess (for lack of a better word).
Quitting my job is not an option because where I live the unemployment rate is around 15%-20%, I am well-paid for this country's standards and I am the breadwinner of the household.
So yeah, I could use some advice from you guys.
Do you drink alcohol?
No, i dont do drugs either. I do use Diazepam when I am so stressed out I cant sleep. Maybe once per week or so.
Maybe this was just me but after using any type of benzos when I wake up the next day I'm super depressed.
That happened to me when I was given orfidal. Next day I was almost suicidal for no reason. But you may be right, maybe this time i had a "bad trip".