i've been struggling with depression for 5 years now. I was steadily working on it, finding Gavin's show definitely helped, but Ive been struggling at work for the past 3 years. I seemed to be coping just alright, I even started doing sports recently and so on, but today everything crumbled and havent been able to even step out of bed. I had a sort of mental breakdown I guess (for lack of a better word).
Quitting my job is not an option because where I live the unemployment rate is around 15%-20%, I am well-paid for this country's standards and I am the breadwinner of the household.
So yeah, I could use some advice from you guys.
On Saturday I went out for a long walk in the morning and also in the afteernon.
On Sunday, however, I just felt I wanted to die. I wanted to go out but simply couldnt. I only ate icecream and some other shit and spent money as if I was Ryan. €60 on shit I dont even need.
I was €5000 in debt at the beginning of the year, and I have managed to lower it to €3200 or €3300 - which is still a lot - by controlling spending to the last dime. That included going to work and coming back on foot to spend less on transportation. I just fucked everything up yesterday.
Eating shit + spending €60 on useless shit made me feel like a total failure.
Idk what else to do. Maybe I will increase my fitboxing sessions to 3 per week.
I already cut down my caffein - this was a recommendation made bt Biggs cousin in some of his early shows and it did really work for me - and sugar intake, but probably need to pay more attention to my diet.